The saddest reality..

I CARE… BUT YOU DON’T.

Sickening… I really hate the feeling knowing there’s someone I’m stumbling on to.

Leaving? It actually hurts more to know you’re there and someone is there but you just cannot do something to make things work the way you want it to be.

Talking about happiness and sadness just make things worst so why not think of something else?

Sometimes the best way to express emotions is to just keep your mouth shut when you feel like bursting out. This way, you can still have more time to think of the easiest yet the exact words you will have to say when you feel better.

I laugh, I cry, I stink. I definitely am not numb. I am a person, and I have feelings. No matter how many times you say you are okay when you are not, you will actually still blow up.

Why oh why can’t other people see that we actually care for them? They are not blind, are they?

Oh well, thinking there’s always something to look forward to everyday just makes things quiet different. Positive outlook --- that’s what we all need in order to survive.

Appreciating… why is it too hard for people to say even just a simple “Thank you”? PRIDE, tide, surf, ariel – they are detergents so don’t use them when you’re not doing some laundry, sistah!

When someone matters, every simple detail about that person counts a lot. You begin to be responsive and sometimes become over sensitive to what he or she says and do. It’s like wearing earphones; you cannot hear anything around you anymore but him.

I cannot actually say that it is love, you just care. But sometimes, caring can also be caused by being just too needy with the attention, thus, you initiate to care for him and expect him to do the same thing that you did.

I just do not get it why we do things beyond our means when we’re not asked to do it in the first place. Then we feel sad and get mad if it gets unnoticed. People are totally just too capricious sometimes but we are unaware that we are. We’re so good at telling others about it and often mock them at the back not knowing we, too, are guilty as charged.

Everybody deserves to be happy but happiness may vary from one person to another. Some people are just so hard too please that even giving out all of you may still not be enough for him.

It truthfully is tiring to do it all over again but you just feel that you have to. Because the more he gets wide awake, the more you feel the urge of gaining his eyes.

Then… what happened to all those traditional women that were supposed to be served by men?

Today, it’s like women will have to be very careful in order for men to stay.

To all the men, I may ask: Do you still remember that she was there the time when you needed someone to talk to? When you needed someone to hang out with even though she does not enjoy drinking beer and hanging out late at night, she was there. When you needed someone to help you do your home works, she was there.She was there… she was. But men were just too picky roaming around, looking for someone else better than this type of woman, jumping from one relationship to another.

And now they’re saying that we, girls, are becoming too easy? No! Girls are just actually tagging along with what they see these greedy men need. Like emotions, girls also vary depending on the type of man they want to hook up with. We become somebody of our own choice and sometimes, we begin to change to be appreciated by that one person we want to notice us.

Pretending sometimes becomes a very common excuse in order to save our faces from this ditching reality. We cannot force someone to like us, so all we can do is just show how much we care for them. And it’s up to them how they’re going to react to it.

The worst part of being a woman is not the weakness, but the reality that we are tagged as an option while men are the choosers. Men often think that we are too picky and choosy when it is the other way around. We are not picky; it’s just that the one that we like is not among the ones who expressed loudly their feelings towards us.

Men do not know that they are luckier to be able to sight and pick then say what they want to the girl they like… we cannot.

It is so hard… but we cannot do anything but wait. We will have to wait for that person that we like to feel the same way that we do. And that’s just one reality that we cannot change.

Eight

I used to think that life is easy. When you stumble into something, you stop and continue moving. But it's actually more than that -- there's more to life than just to live.

When I was a kid, I never needed anybody but myself. I was so engrossed of living alone that I never noticed who cared for me more than I did. I cared for no one but my self and a little for my family, that's how jerky I was before.

But then again, change is constant. We always learn to let go of the traits that we used to have and start living according to the needs of the society. I began to be dependent and at the same time, independent. From then on, I considered other people's opinion before I proceed and decide.

Apparently, no man is an island. We cannot live alone, because if we can, then most probably there's something going on deep inside your brain. With that, go see a doctor and have it cured! Kidding.

But anyway, when we were young, we used to live on the other side of the planet. We fail, we fall but we still stand up. That's how we were, but I was different. I started playing with other kids when I reached the age of 8 -- and that's soemthing I ain't totally proud of.

Maturity came to me the moment I saw the need of company. I felt so matured at the age of eight, thus, I thought most likely like those who were already 12. But I lived fine and I found it cool. I strive harder than those who were of the same age as me but I felt more pain over them -- and that's the hardest part.

Living is not totally about contenting yourself, but making yourself think you are indeed contented of every little thing that has been offered right in front of you. When you're too busy picking up the smaller pieces, someone else has to pick up those larger, visible pieces you never noticed. It happens everytime but you never care.

Right now, I live according to my plans and at the same time, according to my own will. Live life to the fullest and you'll totally enjoy every single detail of it!